Thursday, June 9, 2011

14 Again!

Yesterday evening while walking alone on my way to Sairam Mandir, I had a strong feeling of Deja Vu. I felt that I was thinking in the same pattern that I used to think a decade ago. The introvert compulsive thinker that i was then, observing things, patterns closely. Thinking about the smallest of things and getting lost in thoughts, connections, drawing analogies from anything with everything.

This has been happening for days now. Yesterday evening while crossing the road I just stood there noticing the patterns being created by lights from the cars passing by with even the deadly Delhi buses looking artsy. Then looking at a father holding his son's hand and helping him cross the road while the little kid was busy happily jumping and playing on the road under the sense of security that the symbolic gesture of holding his hand by somebody that he could trust his life with provided him.

A couple of days earlier, while on the terrace early morning I was feeding pigeons that come there each morning. I have been doing this as a habit since a long time now. But that day looking at the pigeons I was lost in my thoughts drawing analogies with our own world. The way pigeons know that there would be somebody who would feed them every morning based on a relationship of trust. How our own expectations get based on a continuous basis on the various relationships of trusts that we have in life.

Some thoughts above and a countless number of similar other thoughts that are just occurring in the same patterns as at an earlier point in my life. Weird! :)